Wednesday, November 23, 2011
Not at a Bar
Thanksgiving Eve. Home. Not at a bar. The house is scented with nutmeg, squash, chocolate and onions. Yep, onions. The table is set, what can be cooked it cooked or cooking. No chaos. Calm. Not at a bar. Tomorrow will bring a little chaos, family. Those last minute details. Baby smiles. Hugs. Meetings. More hugs. A celebration of the joy of sobriety. Honest emotions missing those that are no longer here. Real emotions. Not at a bar. The day will end with over full belly. Sleep. Peace. Not at a bar
Tuesday, November 15, 2011
Made it!
Well I made it to my six year mark and a day at a time I can't wait to see what year seven is going to bring!! I know it will be a mix of good and bad, that is life on life's terms after all. Moments of pure joy and gratitude as well as moments were I questions everything I believe and work for.
Today I have choices though about how I will deal with things. Even how I anticipate them. I can wake up each morning and let the negative thoughts call the shots "oh the weather is bad, I have so much work to do, I have such a long day at work, ............" I could give you a full list of all the negative thoughts and fears but choose not to stir the nest so to speak. I try really hard to stay out of that neighborhood in my head. To much like Hotel California!!
Instead I try each day to reach for the good stuff. Through work and persistence the past few years doing that has paid off. I really do find a simple joy in each day. Bright red berry's that stand out in a gloomy day. It is not a million dollars but it is still pretty nifty. An unexpected text or phone call from someone I love. My mom laughing when I come home at night "Hi home I'm Honey" (I don't know why that tickles her but it does!! ) My dad talking about the meeting he went to or golf game he played. Pictures of the wonderful amazing babies.
As my friend Peter says, "Today is a Good Day"
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