At last nights meeting the speaker called it "the deadly triangle" Thanksgiving, Christmas, New Years" So true so true so true.
I have another one under my belt, and Saturday night will be spent in celebration of friends from my home group getting married. I know I really won't breath all the way easy though until it is all a done deal. Down the road in my sobriety I hope the holidays get a bit easier. Right now they are so filled with self induced stress that makes me more than a little scared. Then I get cranky. Character defects surface.
The good news, I do have a defence. I am no longer powerless against that first drink. Instead I can call people, go to a meeting and identify what is going on and why I could even consider a drink. God forbid that first drink reaches my lips though. All the gains I have made in the past six years would be gone with that first sip. I would once again be powerless over alcohol.
I have been debating going to a meeting tonight. I went to one this afternoon, I went last night.. And it is apparent that I need to go to one tonight regardless of the fact that I still have laundry to put away and cleaning to do.
Pick up the tools, use them. THAT is what needs to be done on a daily basis.
