It has been a very very busy month. My daughter graduated from high school. Amazing. I do not have the words for just how proud of her I am. The extra zing for me is that I quit a few months before I should have graduated. I was never able to do any of those high school things like dances, proms, graduate. At that point in my life it was not because of my drinking. I really did not drink all that much in school. It was those inside feelings that kept me looking on the outside. So again, I am so thrilled that was not something that I passed on to her. And she certainly had some hurdles growing up. Her mother was a drunk. Can't say I was to good about milk and cookies and how was your day chats. But I wasn't hurting anyone ... yah right. So she just amazes me. She is a great kid and I love and respect her very much. And little by slow I am getting her respect back.

July I hope will be a little less crazy and I will be a little better about writing. It is good for me to write.

Gifts

Gifts of sobriety are numerous and wonderful. Tonight was one of those gifts. The town I live in has a celebration every year. And even when I was a little kid I always looked forward to it. As I got older, it became another reason to drink. Last year I wondered how it would be sober. I still loved it. This year, I had family visiting .. My sister, her daughter, and my great niece and nephew. I can't even begin to tell you how wonderful it was to play with those babies and know that I was not a danger to them, or that I would stink out my sister with my beer breath. And the icing on the cake for me, was holding my 11 month old nephew in the glider as we watched the fireworks light up the sky. Amazing.
I have my higher power to thank for my sobriety, and AA to thank for teaching me, so that when these gifts show up in my life, I am not just there for it, but aware of it.